Everything happens for a reason

Masya-Allah.. berhabuk bersawang teruk dah MyWoW.. hurmmm.. 

Assalamualaikum dunia.. Salam sejahtera ke atas anda yang sedang membaca.. terima kasih.. Semoga anda dan saya, kita sama-sama dipanjangkan usia dalam keberkatan, dikurniakan rezeki yang halalan toyyiban yang mampu berbagi dan berkongsi, diberikan kesihatan yang baik mampu berbudi dn berbakti.. dipermudahkan segala urusan dunia dan akhirat..

18.4.2024 akhirnya nukilan ini digarap.. at first tak tahu nak tulis apa.. but then when started writing, there are actually lots and lots of things to share.. the very first entry after more than two years.. Aigooya Nazmy Zaki! Where you at? What you've done and been doing?? Are you doing okay for these past two years after confessing your previous status in "When you choose to confront?"

As usual.. writing is the most effective escapism for me when I am actually in a "lost".. after long long time.. Alhamdulillah.. I'm free of any PSY medication or consultation since May last year.. but the Dr said, be careful.. beware.. as I might have a relapse.. the same episode might re-occur if something triggers and I need to call in for PSY again.. which is what currently I'm facing lately.. hurmmm.. hopefully I'm doing just great.. may Allah ease everything.. show me the best way.. aaminnn ya rabbal alamin..

Too much things to write.. too many questions need their answers.. too many dilemmas to be addressed.. hurmmm ottoke.. just a remark for my future.. maybe in this entry I just highlight my previous conversation with my sister during the third night of Raya day.. oh ya.. 

"Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri 1445H.. Maaf Zahir & Batin.."

What happened during that night? Actually we didn't sleep at all.. a long curhat session among girls only siblings.. about what happened in our family.. and what's next and more to come.. here and there.. every each of every thing..

Last but not least.. I told my sister I needed someone that can guide me the right way out of the current situation.. and she said that I will find that someone very soon.. The thing is.. how do I know if the person coming into my path is really that "someone"? Shall I spill the tea to anyone? *sigh*

Just like today.. I'll be doing something against my own principle again.. I did try few options to avoid it from happened but the answer is still not a favor to me.. or maybe because it is my own fault at the very first place because I did agree with the situation to happen? 

Ya Allah.. please guide me.. I really don't know what is the answer.. I know it's not right, but it is happening.. Astaghfirullahal'azim.. Which way.. which aspect should I look at? Ya Allah.. I really really don't know what You have planned for me.. but if You enable it to happen, then they must be something behind the curtain.. Apakah hikmah atau pengajaran disebaliknya yang perlu aku gali dan cari? 

Everything happens for a reason.

Ya Allah.. sepintas lalu ilham diberi.. mengingatkan aku agar memaklumkan pada seorang ibu.. masih belum berjawab.. semoga apa yang bakal dijawab adalah daripada berkat ArRahman dan ArRahim-Mu.. bantulah aku Ya Allah.. 

Let's pen-off for now.. insya-Allah will update again very soon..