Kisah Setia Bayang

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Alhamdulillah. Subhanallah. Allahuakbar. 

Setelah sekian lama, My World of Wisdom sunyi dari sebarang nota diri. Pagi ini terasa nak berkarya pulak. 😂 So catat kat sini lah sebagai kenang-kenangan. 

Kisahnya pagi tadi berbasikal. Kebetulan matahari pagi ini cemerlang sedikit. Jadinya, sentiasa mengejar mengejar sendiri. Adakala bayang yang mengejar. Ada masanya, sama-sama seiringan berkayuhan. Sambil youtube tengah mainkan playlist zikir fikir mendidik jiwa. Datangnya ilham kisah bayang. And, yes. Inilah hasilnya. 

Kisah Setia Bayang

Hari ini kaki melangkah lagi. 
Dan dia masih bersama di sisi. 
Walau ke mana kaki menuntun pergi.
Pasti dia turut menemani. 
 
Tidak kiralah siang hari waktu mentari bersinar terang.
Mahupun malam ketika bulan mengambang. 
Pasti bayang setia bersama. 
Betapa Allah itu Maha Pengasih Maha Penyayang. 
Dia tahu seorang manusia tidak boleh hidup berseorangan.
Lalu dicipta-Nya bayang agar manusia mengambil teladan dan pengajaran. 
 
Bahawa selamanya bayang setia,
Mengetahui segala dosa dan noda. 
Bahkan mungkin menjadi saksi 
Terhadap perbuatan tangan dan kaki.
Hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui.
Hikmah sang bayang yang senyap sunyi
Terus menemani setiap manusia di dunia-Nya ini. 

Hingga ke pertemuan yang abadi di akhirat sana nanti. 

Nazmy Zaki || 25.08.2020 || 9:33 a.m.

😌

Itulah kisah setia bayang. The most loyal person on earth. Semua yang bernyawa lainnya telah atau bakal meninggalkan kita. Bahkan diri kita sendiri tidak mungkin memberi sepenuh taat setia pada orang lain. Pasti ada keraguan atau tidak persetujuan dan kurang permuafakan antara satu sama lain. Ibu, ayah dan anak. Suami isteri. Sanak saudara. Sahabat handai. Semuanya pasti akan ada komplikasinya pada sesuatu keadaan dan masa.

Jadikan Aku Wanita Itu..

"Oh Tuhanku,

Aku mengadu..

Jangan Kau serahkan aku pada diriku.."

Berulang kali malam ni aku dengar lagu #menangislah oleh Syamsul Yusof & Mawi.. 

Paling tersentuh part first sekali.. "Jangan Kau serahkan aku pada diriku.." 

Bukan setakat kadang-kadang.. Apatah lagi jarang-jarang.. tapi sebaliknya.. sentiasa (moga tidak sepanjang masa).. aku.. lupa.. segala gerak daya.. segala ilham kata.. segala jua yang aku perlaku.. tidak satu pun tanpa pengetahuan-Nya.. tidak satu pun tanpa keizinan-Nya.. 

Sekali lagi di awal-awal pagi ini.. aku dan dia berbicara.. maafkan aku wahai saudaraku.. aku sentiasa berkasar bahasa.. sentiasa menggunakan kata-kata yang menyentuh sensitiviti jiwa.. aku bukan Hamba Allah yang baik.. apalagi mampu menjadi temanmu yang terbaik.. Na'uzubillahi min zalik.. Andai Allah bukakan hijab diriku... Aku benar-benar tidak tahu di paras manakah letak pandang-Nya terhadapku.. Hina dina diriku.. Fakir miskin amalanku.. 

Berbanding dirimu yang kerap bersolat malam.. kerap berpuasa menambah amalan... senantiasa bersedekah dan membelanja makan teman-teman.. Maafkan aku menoreh luka.. menabur garam dan cuka ke atasnya.. maafkan aku.. Sebagaimana kata-kataku kepadamu.. "Aku tidak mungkin layak ke syurga.. tapi aku juga amat takut untuk menghadapi siksa neraka.." dan balasmu.. engkau pun sama.. "kita berusaha ke arah yang lebih baik dari sebelumnya.."

Kerana itu, aku seru buat diriku dan buat dirimu wahai sahabatku.. 

Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti Asiah, 

Isteri kepada penderhaka Allah yang zalim.. 

Si Firaun pengaku tuhan dunia.. 

Namun Asiah tetap dengan pendirian..

Sehingga dijanjikan syurga,
Di sisi Tuhan Sekalian Alam..

Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti Maryam..

Ibu kepada seorang Nabi..
Dianugerahkan Allah surahnya dalam Al-Quran..

Sedang lahir anaknya tanpa bapa..

Namun caci maki dunia tidak terasa.. 

Kerana kemuliaan dan kesucian dipelihara..

oleh Allah yang Maha Kuasa..

Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti Siti Khadijah.. 

Selayaknya Saidatina bersama Rasulullah SAW.. 

Tidak mungkin mampu menandingi kehebatan beliau,

Namun setidaknya kita berusaha menghiasi diri, 

bukan dengan emas atau permata berkilau..

Tapi dengan teguhnya iman dan pengorbanan, 

Demi suami dan Islam..

Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti Siti Aisyah..
Isteri Rasul Allah yang amat mencemburui Khadijah..
Anak kepada sahabat Baginda paling akrab dan rapat..
Ummul Mukminin yang dikurnia ilmu penuh didada,
Menjadi rujukan sahabat-sahabat
sebagai salah seorang periwayat Hadith terbanyak..

Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti
Fatimah bintu Rasulullah..
Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti
Sumayyah yang terbunuh demi agama Allah..
Semoga kita sama-sama menjadi seperti
Ainul Mardhiah.. Seperti Zinnirah..

Dan moga kita sama-sama menjadi sebagaimana..
Ramai ramai ramai lagi wanita muslimah yang mukminah..
Di sanjung tinggi di bumi dunia.. dan lebih dari itu..
Dimuliakan seluruh isi alam hingga ke langit dan akhirat sana..

Kerana itu..

Ya Allah.. 

Aku memohon kepada-Mu.. 

Janganlah Engkau serahkan aku pada diriku.. 

Janganlah Engkau serahkan kami pada diri kami..

Jadikan aku wanita itu..

Jadikan kami seperti mereka ya Allah..

Ya Allah..

Demi jiwa serta penyempurnaan ciptaan-Mu,

Engkaulah yang mengilhamkan kepadanya 

jalan kejahatan dan ketakwaan..

Beruntunglah bagi orang-orang yang menyucikannya,

Serta rugilah bagi mereka yang mengotorinya..

Wahai Yang Membolak-balikkan Hati..

Tetapkan hati-hati kami ya Allah..

Pada jalan agama-Mu..

Buat diriku dan sahabatku, moga kita menjadi sepertimana wanita-wanita agung itu.. Yang paling terkurang kita boleh lakukan adalah menjaga luaran.. Kerana dosa yang kita paparkan, saham-sahamnya makin bertambah sebanyak mana orang yang memandang.. Sama-samalah kita menutup aurat dengan sempurna..

Formulanya senang je..

Berpakaianlah sebagaimana syarat sah solat yang disyariatkan.. 

Semoga Allah menjaga maruah dan aib kita.. Kita dilahirkan mulia, malah dinamakan Allah surah An-Nisaa yang bermaksud wanita.. Jangan rendahkan maruah kita, dengan cuba menidakkan apa yang tersurat dalam Al-Quran..

Bukan isu #munafik yang cuba aku ketengahkan di sini.. kerana aku mungkin lebih munafik dari kamu wahai sahabatku.. Namun aku berusaha mengajak diriku dan dirimu agar sama-sama berubah ke arah yang lebih baik.. Luaran yang terpapar mungkin bakal menjemput bala yang lebih besar..

Astaghfirullahal'azim.. 

Astaghfirullahal'azim..

Astaghfirullahal'azim..

Subhanaka inni kuntu minaz zalimin..

Rujukan: 

http://www.muftiwp.gov.my/ms/artikel/irsyad-fatwa/irsyad-fatwa-umum/1915-irsyad-fatwa-ke-73-hukum-perempuan-berpakaian-menampakkan-bentuk-tubuh-dan-hukum-bagi-orang-yang-sengaja-melihat-aurat-orang-lain?highlight=WyJwZXJidWF0YW4iLCIncGVyYnVhdGFuIl0= 

Kind Words Echo

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Finding the mood to continue writing.. But really can't tune in my brain to that so called technical write up, so me trying to write up the new post for My World of Wisdom.. hurm.. what should I write.. Can't figure out the right title or theme yet.. Let's me just write and see what shall I share for MyWow..

Last few days ago, 26 and 27 of July, I had attended the Postgraduate Research Colloquium organized by our faculty.. Faculty of Industrial  Management (FIM).. On day one, the guest speaker, Dr Teo Bee Yap had given a very inspiring talk.. Dr Teo is the Executive Director of Skynet.. He already obtained a PhD and currently is undertaking another doctoral study for Islamic Finance.. He shared his life journey of persevering education to become who he is now.. Too many inspiring words that he shared and among some words of wisdom are:

"Education is life-long journey. It is always part of our life. 

Enhance your value by continuous learning. 

Set the long term goals (3-5 years), set milestones, review the goals weekly. 

Keep challenging yourself..! Don't stay in your comfort zone.

Always feel that you have not achieve something. 

Be "unhappy" with your current achievement. 

Thus, it will force you to keep on learning..

Be expert in area of interest.

Be ready for the opportunity. Keep on doing "research".

The only thing that enable us to achieve everything in our life is:

be willing to change..! and one of the most crucial thing is

know yourself..! Know your own strengths and weaknesses.."

Thank you so much Dr Teo for these words of wisdom.. actually there were many other sessions during the colloquium, but too many to include it here. So maybe in another entry.. For this post, I would like to highlight the theme of "Know Yourself"..

How to know our own self? There are various ways to get to know our self better.. One of the way is to carry out psychology tests.. There are lot of free tests and paid tests that we can take.. It gives us the marks and percentage of which group we are in or what personality type we are, so on and so forth..  Another way is to meet the counselor or psychologist themselves. These professionals study and are being trained specifically to handle "human being". Thus, having an appointment with them will give us direct consultation on who we are and how can we change our self for becoming better..

As for me, I used to have my own style of asking people around me about who am I and what kind of person I am to them.. Since my younger age, I used to keep a "biodata" book which friends and relatives wrote inside it (I still keep them till now).. during my secondary school, as a school prefect, we used to conduct activities and so on. This was the first time ever, when I requested my friends or juniors to write a personal evaluation about me anonymously.. Since then, I used to do it and keep on reviewing the comments.. Some parts I had changed a lot, but some parts are still the common comments I received. Especially on being introvert, timid, shy and nervous person.. Among others are being "stone-heart", strict, fierce, arrogant and so on.. 

The latest comments I received are from this early year when I requested my PGA family and some of new friends at UMP to give their feedback and evaluation about myself. There are few comments that really make my days.. and I keep on reading them occasionally to boost up my self-esteem.. These comments are: 

"For my opinion, you have a very good spirit and your attitude reflects your wonderful personality, and same goes to your skills and capabilities. Honestly, I impressed with your ability to manage all PGA without any conflict with any person among PGA.."

"Perfect, adorable, always a smiley face makes you beautiful. To be honest everything is complete, specially your smile.."

"You are calm and you always smile. You are also cautious and thoughtful.."

"Good in manner, great personality, awesome to be friend with. You are the best in the way you are, keep being yourself.."

😍😍😍 I truly thank you so much Mr@Ms Anonymous for these kind words.. ya.. there are few others more, but these comments are among the most nicest comments I received. Because, it really against what I used to be.. I am totally imperfect and I always pray that I will really become a calm person instead of having nervous breakdown.. Even at the moment, I really have hard time to manage good relationship with others.. 

but really.. kind words echo.. It really makes my day when I feel a little bit stumbled in my journey.. (as of right now..).. Nevertheless, I wish that every people I had encountered with, will encounter and currently engaged with have a slightly positive thought about myself (even just a word). This is because my father always said that if 40 people who are really close to us, keep on saying that we are good and kind people, then, yes, it is a prayer that we are really belong to a group of good and kind people and that we will be one of them.. aminn ya rabbal alamin..

It is almost 3 am.. have to finish my entry write up.. My "lonjakan strategik" report is waiting.. huhuhu.. Just in case, you are reading my personal sharing in My World of Wisdom.. herewith I enclosed the link for you to give your personal evaluation about myself. Feel free to write anything you want coz it really is anonymous.. For your honesty and fair evaluation, I am genuinely thank you so much from the bottom of my heart.. 

👉👉👉"Nazmy's Personal Evaluation"👈👈👈

A Friend for Nazmy is..

"Friend is Family"

A true friendship doesn't need daily conversation. It does not assume the worst, even when communication is lacking. Strong friendships survive the storms of this life because they believe the best about each other. As long as the friendship lives in the heart, true friends will never part.. (by anonymous)

Just like a family.. Sometimes (maybe most of the time), I rarely texted my blood-related brother or sister to ask how are they, what they are doing, so on and so forth.. yet, I know that they are always there for me.. every minute and every second.. thus, who are friends? Friend is family..

We are all one big family.. The Almighty Allah has created us in all kind of races, from all sorts of life, from all walks of life.. so that, we can get to know each other and keep on living this worldly life in harmony.. Life is short and it is only the place to grow up the 'crops' that we will harvest in the life hereafter..

Thus, I always try to make more and more friends.. Trying to be good to everyone.. Yes, there is always quotes saying that "You can't satisfy everyone's need, you can't please everyone for everything they want".. yet.. I try my best to serve all my friends as per my family.. Fighting is normal.. Not talking is normal.. At the end, birds of the same feather flocks together..

From Anas bin Malik (may Allah be pleased with him): The Messenger of Allah (Sollallahu alaihi wa sallam) said that, "Do not desert (stop talking to ) one another, do not nurse hatred towards one another, do not be jealous of one another, and become as fellow brothers and slaves of Allah. It is not lawful for a Muslim to stop talking to his brother (Muslim) for more than three days (Hadith Bukhari and Muslim)..

Can't wait for this coming Saturday.. we are going to have our PGA 2016 Get Together.. counting every hour for this gathering.. It has been too long since our last time together.. PGA Family 2016 is one of the best things (can't find the right word) that I will always cherish and love..

Progress, please be on track! It's not over until I win..

Subhanallah.. Alhamdulillah.. Allahuakbar..

It's 11 Ramadhan 1438 H..  

Yesterday received Prof's messages, saying that she already evaluated this semester progress report.. huhuhu.. Feel really sorry for Prof bcoz this semester (actually since last semester), had been in idle mode.. Not much progress done.. 

Dear me.. What happened?? huhu..

Comparing to all other 18 semesters as a student life, this semester was the worst for me.. I had been absent from the conference.. I submitted the grant report's overdue.. I skipped from meeting Prof.. I literally did nothing for this semester.. huhuhuhu..

Get up dear self..!! No more reason.. No more caving alone.. Please no more dear me.. Keep on progressing, be on track so that you can realize what you have been aiming so far..

Now, there is two semesters more.. make it the most productive and progressive semesters.. Only you can change your life, Nazmy Zaki! Dr Nazmy Zaki by next year birthday October 2018.. When my mind can conceive, I can achieve.. I believe I can do it..

In Shaa Allah.. Biiznillah..

'Dr Nazmy Zaki' is the biggest and priceless gift for Abah & Ma.. 

October 2018.. 30 years of being a daughter to both Ma & Abah.. Nothing can I give to payback all the tears, sweats and hardships of grooming me to be your perfect in imperfection daughter.. Wish that this small title will make both of you smile with pride.. Infiniti Terima Kasih Ma & Abah..

#PursuitofHappyness

" The Road Not Taken; Don't Quit! "

Oh my!

It is already in the middle of February 2017..

The very first entry after so many half-way-done trials.. 

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

May this year will be another great year for My WOW.. 

My World of Wisdom.. 

Starting the very first entry of this year 

by sharing two most inspiring poems for me since ages..

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost 

which I learnt it since secondary school years years ago..

and Don't Quit by Anonymous which I found from 

wish cards that I once gave them for friends in 2012/13..

May at least a sentence from these poems will be your 

Words of Wisdom to keep on moving forward this year..

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Source: Google 

The Road Not Taken 

by: Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both..

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference..

Don't Quit

by: Anonymous

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile but you have to sigh,

When care is pressing you down a bit,

Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,

As every one of us sometimes learns,

And many a failure turns about,

When he might have won if he'd stuck it out.

Don't give up, though the pace seems slow -

You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than

It seems to a faint and faltering man;

Often the struggler has given up

When he might have captured the victor's cup,

And he learned too late, when the night slipped down,

How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out -

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are -

It may be near when it seems afar;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -

It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

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Setting my dreams far ahead.. 

2017/18 Aims: PhD, Life Partner and Umrah with Family.. 

If it is meant to be, it surely will be.. 

Biiznillah.. Be grateful servant, be dutiful daughter, be respectful human, 

and just be you Nazmy Zaki..!

For friends and everyone reading this entries..

Do pray for my parents' best of health and cures from all illness..

Wishing you all the best, the greatest health and abundance of joy and wealth too..

Be strong.. be positive.. and always stay motivated..

Everything happens for a reason.. Fa inna ma'al 'usri yusra..

"Indeed, after the hardship comes the ease.." [Al-Qur'an 94:6]

"Sesungguhnya, selepas setiap kesulitan itu pasti disusuli dengan kesenangan.."

...One Day.. Maher Zain.. 

(recently keep on playing this song too much.. even while I'm writing this entry..)

The Gist of Life

Everything happens for a reason.. You'll never know exact things that will happen within just a blink of eyes.. Living live at present.. Life is all about making decision, stick to it or change direction.. Begins with the ends in mind.. Yes, time matters.. but what matter most is the journey of life..

There is no such things as incidents or accidents.. People are sent to our life with purpose.. Things happened because they are fated to.. Everything is a reflection.. A mirror image.. If we do kind, people pay same kindness.. If we smile, they smile back brightly.. Thus..

The Gist of Life

Regret that this year is coming to an end.. hu.hu.hu.hu..
But 2016 is one of the best years to remember..
Never crossed my mind nor happened in my dream before..
To receive this Outstanding Leadership Award..
Praise be to Him..

Special Hadiah untuk Ma & Abah

Happy Anniversary Ma & Abah yang ke-30..

12/12/16.. 

The uttermost secret recipe of our life.. 

Because both of you are there, I am here today..

Thank You Allah..

Thanks my most beloved and most precious Ma & Abah..

Thanks my awesome brothers and sisters..

Thanks my new Family #PGAUMP..

Thanks everyone..

Thanks to every single thing..

Thanks to every single minute and second..

Thanks.. Infinity of thanks..

"Sorry" is the only word I can say for all shortcomings, rudeness, impolite, ignorance, imperfection.. flaws, defaults, mistakes, incompetence, and all other words can describe.. 

Welcoming 2017 with so much anticipation.. 

Turning over a new leaf.. 

It's Okay Nazmy..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

Almost a week after the first entry of year 2016.. today, I just feel like writing and carving something again on MyWOW.. My World of Wisdom.. In the past six days, lots of things happened.. If I am to say about them all.. yes.. it was so restless.. so tired.. so sick..  but as what I always told myself:

"You have the option to choose... either to take it or leave it.. either to make in in good and positive way or bad and negative way.. either to smile over it or to frown over it.. It is all your decision.. don't blame others.. don't blame anyone.. never argue with Him about why.. because everything happens for a reason.. "

Considering him as one of my personal life coach.. Thank you Dato' Roslan Ab Hamid..

It's okay if I have few friends who really understand me.. It's okay if I have very limited number of close relationships.. It's okay if I don't have all of you besides me.. I will do my level best to manage it 'professionally'... Leave what's personal to what's really personal.. cause those who are truly true to me is always my family members.. we fought with each others, we hated each others, we dislikes each others.. yet.. we always will be together.. accepting each other flaws..

"The older I get, the more I understand that it's okay to live a life others don't understand.."

Smile and keep moving forward.. I can't wait to be at home tomorrow.. wish I'm there already.. (Y_Y)

Recapitulation of My One Year Life

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Finally..

It is already 3rd September, yet, this is the very first entry for the year 2016.. 

One of not so achievable target.. *sigh* 

Life is never so dull for the past previous twelve months.. tonnes of things happened that should be shared and carved in MyWOW.. My World of Wisdom.. I don't wanna miss a single thing.. yet.. it is always overtaken by my not-so-willing-to-write attitude.. What happened my dear self..? #mohonjadirajin boleh..!?

A Quick Recap of My Life..

Sept 07, 2015.. officially registered as a PhD student at Universiti Malaysia Pahang under supervision of the most generous, the most compassionate husband and wife.. Professor Dato' Dr Hasnah Haron and Professor Dato' Dr Ishak Ismail.. whom I have known since furthering my master study at USM three years ago.. So bless to know them and to learn directly from them..

Sept 15, 2015.. around 4:30 pm.. received text through whatsapp from my uncle.. saying that my closest auntie passed away.. Al fatihah for her.. may Allah forgive her and gather her around those good and selected people.. I did face this sad news of the death of my closest ones who were both my grandmothers and cousin in 1999, 2003 and 2006 respectively.. Yet.. I had never been so 'close' to them.. I kept my distance, I recited Qur'an faraway and did not look upon them even when the white kafan was to cover them all up.. despite being called by my mother and relatives.. but for this time.. I was beside arwah Che Yah.. reciting the Qur'an phrases by phrases.. very near and close.. still until the end, I refused to look at Che Yah's face even though people came and opened the cover in front of me.. I am not strong enough.. that's why Ya Allah.. please.. give me enough time with my parents..

Oct 03, 2015.. a memory carved in MyWOW.. thank you Allah.. now.. counting the days for another month.. please Allah.. grant me the chance to be a better me.. hopefully this year is the last year owning the title of 'single and available'.. if I am to live for the following Oct 2017, may You grant me the partner of my life.. (wishing someone to come, greet my parents and promise them that he will take responsibility of me very soon).. Amin ya Allah...

Oct 30, 2015.. I knew it might be the case but trying hard to believe in other way round.. until this day when Abah told us that he is suffering the stage four cancer.. can't say anything more.. but Allah.. please.. please grant him health.. please grant both my parents longer life.. please grant us enough time to be together without regret, without repentant, without feeling remorseful..

Nov 18, 2015.. one of the best milestones ever.. Alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah.. thank you Ma.. thank you Abah.. thank you my families.. thank you my great teachers and lecturers.. thank you all who had made one of my dreams came true.. my convocation day and waiting for the next convocation.. in shaa Allah.. as per doa abah and the wishes in whatsapp group.. same date: "abah bangga dengan anak2 abah.. along sedang buat phd.. angah unimas kepujian.. abg scond class upper uum.. kakak upm klas pertama insyaallah.. mad captain.. ifah n adik pasti oversea.. abah n maa sangat bangga.. teruskan perjuangan.." it's a big responsibility for me.. Doakan along abah.. in shaa Allah.. along akan jaga adik2 seperti yang abah harapkan..

~hadiah untuk ma dan abah..~

Dec 12, 2015.. Guess what else is the most important date other than this is? Happy anniversary Ma, Abah.. 29 years counting.. huhu I could only send a simple wishes on this date last year.. Hopefully, this year 12/12/2016 we can celebrate more.. the 30 years of being together with each other.. having Along and the other six siblings as part of the miraculous moments in both of your life.. Thank You Ma.. Thank You Abah.. Thank you Allah for giving me this family..

Dec 18, 2015.. it is officially announced that I will be leading the UMP Postgraduate Association which never in my life I would dream for it.. yes, I used to be in a student society's, association and student's movement.. I love to organize events and occasions but I really do not prefer to be the main leader.. And during the Gala Night Dinner on this date, I was invited to be on the stage in front of more than 200 staff and postgraduate students as the new appointed president.. Is it hard? Yes, it is.. It is difficult? Yes, it has never been easy.. Yet since then, I get to know lot of people.. I learn lot of things..

Dec 24, 2015.. Again.. received another sad news through whatsapp.. My childhood friend, my dearest friend whom I shared more than half of my life with.. she had loss her father previous day.. My dear friend, we did not meet until now since that news came from you.. we have known each other since 1996 and I treasure you at the most special place deep in my heart.. truly, I am really sorry and I wish I was there.. I love you and will always love you Sahabatku..

Jan 1, 2016.. New year came.. New targets was made on this very first day.. yet, not even one achieved (*sigh*).. Dear Nazmy Zaki.. you have less than four months to clear up at least some of the aims listed in your 2016..

Jan 16, 2016.. it was Abah's 53 years birthday... huhu Along can't give anything except for the prayers.. May Allah keep borrowing this great man in my life and my families.. May Allah grant the cure for all the sickness and illness..

Feb 27, 2016.. Even we are geographically far apart, family will always connected deep in heart.. Thank you ma, thank you abah.. thank you my dear brother for driving them to UMP after long time I could not be at home.. huhu..

Mac 1, 2016.. Received a screen captured photo by my sister.. our dearest uncle put up the comment of his birthday.. so sad, so touched.. Maafkan kami Pok Mat.. huhu... will be more concerned and sensitive in future..

May 11, 2016.. it's our beloved Ma's birthday.. Happy birthday Ma.. I wished I could be home.. luckily.. on May 14, 2016.. Ma, abah, angah and iffah came to UMP.. Happy to treat them to Seoul Garden Mega Mall, Kuantan.. Alhamdulillah.. ma and abah enjoyed a lot.. happy happy happy.. thanks so much Allah.. I wish I can do even more for them..

Jun 4, 2016.. Organizing PGA Interaction Day.. huhu I knew myself is not a good leader.. a lot to improve on.. Even though, it is quite bold of me to say this.. but... I'm glad.. it was successfully executed within very short period of time.. Thank you so much for the great team work and supports by fellow PGA colleagues..

Jun 16, 2016.. passed one of the PhD milestones i.e. proposal defense.. it was tense, it was highly nervous for me since I did not fully prepare.. Alhamdulillah.. it went alright.. huhu but until now I still did not manage to do the correction.. hoho.. will do it soon..

July 6, 2016.. Alhamdulillah.. celebrating Eidul Fitri.. they said it red, we said it maroon.. hehe.. whatever it was, we were happy and enjoyed so much.. Wishing for another year and years coming, may we always be together.. maybe with a new family member.. huhuhu counting days to days.. still waiting for the mysterious figure.. Rabbi yassir wa la tu'asir.. rabbi tamim bilkhair.. amin ya Allah..

~More than Enough~

Aug 16, 2016.. huhu had only short holiday for Hari Raya.. after arriving at UMP for few weeks.. received the news that one of our dearest teachers fall sickness and was admitted at General Hospital, Terengganu.. huhu planned to visit him since Hari Raya.. Allah loves him more.. May Cikgu Salmi Senik rest in peace.. may Allah forgive all his sins.. may Allah grant him the happiness in life hereafter.. He taught me since I was in primary school, SK Tok Jiring.. He taught all of my six siblings.. May Allah pay all his good deeds and his devotion in shaping us into the useful and valuable human resource.. Alfatihah.. Thank you so much Cikgu.. Tenanglah di sana..

Aug 20, 2016.. Congrats my dear sister for your award of "Leftenan Muda".. so proud of you.. since you were little, you had always dreaming of becoming an officer in uniform.. You might has forgotten this, but.. once I did tell you the story about the Palapes.. where you can pursue your passion for both studies and uniformed unit.. Congrats again.. You did the best far above us.. Every semester scored Dean's List and now another one step forward.. Aye aye captain.. You deserve it..

Yet.. on the very same date.. through the photos posted by Ma in our whatsapp group.. I was crying.. I feel so sad to see our father's condition in one of the photos.. He looked so pale.. He looked so sick.. Ya Allah.. please.. please.. grant him good health.. or at least reduce down the suffers he faced..

"Please Allah.. Grant them good health.."

Aug 26, 2016.. very recently.. my dear sister Iffah was warded and had a three hours operation for appendicitis.. alhamdulillah.. she's good now.. huhu I'm sorry my dear sister for not going back home.. can only keep wishing for you.. See you this Eidul Adha.. on 31 Aug.. had a long talk over the phone with her.. Again.. feeling very bad and sad.. huhu.. she said.. Abah told her that he always pray to Allah to keep away the sickness and illness from us and put them on him.. (Y_Y) huhuhu.. "Allahumma firlana zunubana waliwalidina warhamhuma kama rabbayana soghira.."

Sept 3, 2016.. it's today.. and it's my first entry of the year.. recapitulating every thing, yet, not all can be written here.. huhu.. if there is the best answer to this questions: What is the best and greatest thing I wish for? I would say.. Please Allah.. grant me the calm heart and mind.. that's the only one I need..

Dear everyone.. thank you so much for being part of my life.. you had made a title, a chapter, a paragraph, and a note in my story of life.. My World of Wisdom.. Early birthday wishes to myself: "Be a girl with a mind, a woman with attitude and a lady with class.." Thank you so much Prof for the golden advice today.. I'll be a stronger person in shaa Allah.. 

For my dearest friends and families whom I have been treated unfairly, unjustly, cruelly, falsely, harshly.. I am really sorry.. I know I was even worse before and I'm trying hard to bring out only the best and positive in me.. honestly.. I never have bad intention and I wish all of us can reside next to each other in the life hereafter.. together in the heavenly park with The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), his dearest families and 'alim ulama.. Please pray for me so that I can be strong, patience and have a big heart.. 

MBA (International Business) Part IV and FINAL

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakhbar..

Counting days.. 

One month coming will be the third graduation ceremony I will attend.. 

One of the moments that I will cherish in My World of Wisdom.. 

Thank You Allah for the great chance.. 

Thank You to my dearest and loveliest Ma and Abah.. 

Thank You semua adik2 Along.. 

Thank You so much dear Teachers and Lecturers.. 

Thank You to all staff at Graduate School of Business USM.. 

Thank You to all best friends and colleagues..

Gratefully, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart..

Alhamdulillah.. It is the turning point.. I pass with flying colours.. 

Subhanallah.. Astaghfirullah.. 

May this moment of time will be one of the stepping stones 

on the road to be a successful muslimah wal mukminah..

Just a quick recap.. What have I studied in the fourth semester a.k.a final semester? Well, I took two subjects which are:

• Entrepreneurship in Global Business taught by Prof Madya Tn Hj Noor Nasir Kader Ali
• Global Supply Chain Management taught by Dr Suzari Abdul Rahim

On top of that, we are required to complete the Project Management subject and Dr Rajendran Muthuveloo has been my supervisor. I did feel sorry because the result I got is not entirely my efforts. (Y_Y).. seriously.. huhu.. hoping to do much more better in current studies level.. Besides these, I had two subjects transferred from previous exchange student programme during third semester.. Alhamdulillah.. altogether.. I gained the highest CGPA I ever had in my life.. Thank You Allah.. Thank You all..

I still remember years ago when I said I want to further MBA studies.. They said it is one of the most difficult studies programme. Well.. it inspires me so much that by hook or by crook, I must enroll in this programme. As a matter of fact, I did re-write it couple and couple of times in my bucket list.. Alhamdulillah.. Allah grant me the opportunity to be the Master of Business Administration degree holder. Plus.. I'm an MBA International Business graduates.. (^_^) Alhamdulillah.. cannot wait to wear the graduation robe and be on the stage.. 

Some people say that they cannot do something..

Some people say that they are not able to do what they want to do..

Some people say that they cannot change their life conditions..

Some people say that they are not of a useful creation..

Believe me.. 

All those are just nonsense reasons..

Based on groundless reasoning..

Heartless feelings.. Aimless life..

Allah the Almighty has promised us that

"Every hardship comes ease.."

"Every prayer will be answered.."

"Every effort will be rewarded.."

In Shaa Allah.. Put trust in Him.. 

Set our goal of life and our highest ambition..

Start working towards our aims..

F.A.S.T.A.Q.I.M 

It maybe takes longer time.. It may make us cried blood and sweats..

Just BELIEVE IN OUR SELF and OUR CREATOR.. 

He knows best..

"Allahu yassir wa la tu'assir, Rabbi tamim bilkhair.."

Counting Days.. Welcome A New Me!

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

#sebarkan bahagia #spreading the happyness..

Thank You Allah.. I'm blessed to be here.. Universitas Gadjah Mada, Yogjakarta, Indonesia.. just answered my last paper two days ago.. and now.. i'm officially finished my student exchange programme as required by Graduate School of Business, Universiti Sains Malaysia.. Exploring other country is really adding value to my world of wisdom.. even Indonesia and Malaysia is sharing almost similar culture, it's totally not same.. Allah The Greatest does mention in the Noble Quran that He creates people of different genders, different nation and tribes so that we could know each other.. Nevertheless, Allah does not care of those difference except people who most deeply conscious of Him..

 #Astaghfirullahal'Azim.. Hopefully, I'm capable to be one of them.. Amin..

At the moment.. counting the days to go back to Malaysia.. "hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri.. masih kupilih negeri sendiri.." Too many big things and even tiny little things that make me want to go back to Malaysia.. if possible, in split second.. huhu.. but there's still one final project I need to accomplish before going back.. my AGW 625 International Project Management.. fuhh.. still in the writing process.. Allah ease all.. Amin.. In shaa Allah.. will finish completing the first part by these ten days.. (-_-) amin amin.. Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir, rabbi tamim bil khair.. 

Can't wait to proceed other projects.. 1/1/2015 will be the day I'll arrive in Malaysia.. in shaa Allah.. it will also be the day I'm turning over to new leaf.. be a 'new' me of 'same-previous' person.. Ya Allah.. perkenankan doaku dan permudahkan urusanku.. Amin.. to those who are reading this, do pray for me to be firm and adhere to my choice to change into a 'new' me.. 

Some people might say that, what is inside is more important than the outside.. in other words, they see what matter is only faith and believe (iman), the way you dress and express yourself is not much matter.. If we want to change, change from the inside, increase the knowledge and upgrade our iman.. then, we can bring it outside.. To change should not be too drastic.. That's what they say.. There's no right or wrong.. Because I am in the same opinion with Prof Dr Muhaya.. Her tagline in one of the TV program is always "Dunia dalaman kita menentukan dunia luaran kita"..

But.. on the other hand.. I also believe that external factors do play a very important role in order to ensure our steadfastness as well as influencing our resolution to be a better person.. with respect to expressing one self through clothes, I believe that the outside can be the mould or the matrix for defense purpose.. that is to say.. we can be better person when we change our sense of fashion into a more Islamic-approved one.. because it will help to prevent us from doing immoral things.. hence it will be a great reminder to think and act as a noble Muslimah.. so that we can deliver the message of Islam is the way of life.. amin.. in shaa Allah.. it's just  a reciprocal relationship.. outside-inside and inside-outside..

May year 2015 bring the best in me as the starting point to accomplish my mission of life; to be a great, successful muslimah mukminah wal solehah fil dunia wal akhirah.. amin.. in shaa Allah.. re-quote from Zig Ziglar as one of the strengths source ..

In shaa Allah.. #StartNow

Several things to be accomplished in 2015.. Hadiah Along.. English is Fun Module.. Travelogue Jogja.. MBA-IB.. and so on.. so welcome 2015.. good bye 2014.. May Allah ease everything.. mungkin bah besar akhir 2014 bakal digantikan Allah dengan rezeki melimpah ruah di tahun 2015.. amin..

This might be the last entry for 2014... 

Year 2014 is a year full of wisdom and thoughtfulness.. 

Kullu 'am wa nahnu bilkhair.. in shaa Allah.. 

bye UGM.. going back to USM soon.. (^_^)

Beautiful Worldly Life

....

How beautiful, is this worldly life

But not a soul shall remain

We've all come into this world

Only to leave it one day

I can see that everything around me

Rises then fades away

Life is just a passing moment

Nothing is meant to stay..

This worldly life has an end

And it’s then real life begins

A world where we will live forever

This beautiful worldly life has an end

It’s just a bridge that must be crossed

To a life that will go on forever

So many years, quickly slipping by 

Like the Sleepers of the cave (Al Kahfi)

Wake up and make a choice

Before we end up in our grave...(oh God)

You didn’t put me here in vain

I know I’ll be held accountable for what I do

This life is just a journey

And it’s taking me back to You

Oh...

  

So many get caught in this beautiful web

Its gardens become an infatuation

But surely they’ll understand at the final stop

That its gardens are meant for cultivation

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

Today.. October 3, 2014.. "Selamat Ulangtahun buat diriku yang ke-26.." Thank you Allah for giving me this chance to still be a part of this wordly life.. Chance to be a better me.. chance to fulfill my obligation as Muslim.. Moga diriku menjadi muslimah yang beriman dan beramal soleh.. "Ya Allah.. Engkau telah ciptakan aku dengan nikmat Islam dan Iman, Kekalkan aku dalam Islam dan Iman serta Matikan aku jua dalam Islam dan Iman.." Amin ya rabbal 'alamin..

Today is a very special day.. In Muslim calendar, today is 9 Zulhijjah 1435H, the Wukuf Day for those who are currently in their pilgrimage of life.. dutifully and sincerely performing their Hajj and Umrah as a servant of Allah at Makkah Al-Mukaramah.. Today is also a Friday.. Jumaat, penghulu segala hari.. Hari rahmat dan berkat.. Ya Allah.. perkenankan doa hamba-Mu yang hina dan fakir ini..

"Ya Allah.. 

Engkau hadiahkanlah kesihatan yang baik bagi kedua orang tuaku.. 

Sembuhkanlah penyakit mereka.. Hilangkanlah dukacita mereka.."

"Ya Allah..

Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..

Percepatkanlah urusan jodohku andai hal itu baik bagiku dan agamaku.."

"Ya Allah..

Kurniakanlah kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat 

buat semua kaum keluargaku, sanak saudaraku, sahabat kenalanku

serta seluruh muslimin dan muslimat.."

"Ya Allah..

Janganlah Engkau matikan kami dalam keadaan kami leka dan alfa..

Ampunilah dosa-dosa kami..

Bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang lurus lagi diredhai.."

~This beautiful worldly life has an end.. hopefully, a year older a year wiser..~