Rich Dad, Poor Dad

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Wahh... It is now mid-year 2021.. in a few days it will be July, which I'm supposed to complete my thesis write-up. 

In shaa Allah.. pesanan daripada seorang sahabat: 

PERCAYA SEBELUM BERJAYA

Alhamdulillah.. Hari ini berpagi-pagian dengan niat untuk menyiapkan soalan untuk kelas tuisyen addmath. Siap masak spiral pasta, makan bersama housemates, did my laundary and a bit of house cleaning. 

Just for a kickstart, menjenguk sebentar di ruangan ini untuk update My World of Wisdom. Sebagai rujukan waktu akan datang bahawasanya satu keputusan telah dibuat. Semoga bakal mencipta sejarah hidup #nazmyzaki. 

Since last week, I have been re-reading one of my favourite books which is Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert Kiyosaki. Buku yang dimiliki sejak tahun 2012, setelah pertama kali diperkenalkan dan disebut-sebut waktu degree dahulu oleh salah seorang my favourite lecturer, Pak Tuan. The book teaches me a lot about the rat race, the cash flow quadrant, and what's not. 

Yup, the decision made this time is related to what happened back in 2012, which was me as a financial consultant or to be more specific a unit trust consultant and takaful agent. 

Rabbi yassir wa la tu'assir. Rabbi tammim bilkhair. 

Ya Allah, limpahkanlah selawat dengan selawat yang menyeluruh dan kurniakanlah salam dengan salam yang sempurna ke atas penghulu kami, Nabi Muhammad yang dengannya (selawat itu) dapat merungkai segala ikatan, melepaskan segala kesukaran, melunaskan segala hajat, tercapai segala perkara yang diingini dan kematian yang baik, serta diturunkan hujan (yang menjadi rahmat) disebabkan wajahnya yang mulia. (Begitu juga selawat dan salam ini diberikan) ke atas ahli keluarga Baginda, para sahabatnya di dalam setiap kerdipan mata dan nafas dengan setiap bilangan yang diketahui olehMu.

Aaminnn aaminnn ya rabbal alamin.

Fighting the Unseen I

Alhamdulillah. Dah seminggu melangkah ke tahun baru. Masih bernafas, masih bergerak, masih tidak putus ruang dan peluang yang dikurniakan Allah walau diri serba hina dan khilaf. 

Sejujurnya, sejak pagi tadi aku terasa ingin menulis posting pertama di My World of Wisdom ini bagi tahun 2021. Tab new post telah aku buka sejak jam 10 pagi tapi sekadar menulis title dan items di sisi kanan sahaja. Kemudian aku memilih untuk menyiapkan tugasan bagi kelas malam ini. Masa terus berlalu dan aku masih belum menaip ayat seterusnya sebagai kandungan first entry tahun ini. 

Sehinggalah ke saat tulisanku ini.. Aku baru sahaja terima khabar duka dari group whatsapp sebelum masuk waktu Zohor tadi.. bahawa salah seorang kawan kami kini sedang dirawat di hospital kerana sedang bertarung dengan penyakit yang dipanggil depression. 

"Ya Allah, kuatkanlah diri sahabat kami. Teguhkan hatinya dan peganglah hatinya. Buat sahabatku, moga kau terus kuat melawan. Jangan pernah merasa kau seorang. Kau punya ramai kawan-kawan dan teman apatah lagi keluarga.. juga anakmu sendiri ternanti-nanti.." 

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Sedih bila terus-menerus mendengar kisah kawan-kawan yang terpaksa melawan "penyakit tak nampak" ini. Ini bukan kali pertama. Dalam kalangan sahabat, kawan dan teman yang aku ada.. Lebih daripada belas-belas orang yang aku tahu menghadapi penyakit ini. Bukan self-diagnosed, tetapi clinically dan professionally diagnosed. Ada yang dah pulih sepenuhnya, ada yang masih dalam rawatan.. Malah terlalu ramai yang berkongsi rasa dan meluahkan symptoms yang mereka alami, seolah-olah, ya, sedang menghidapi depression. 

Nota dan peringatan: Jangan self-diagnosed..!

Mungkin ramai kawan-kawan yang tidak tahu.. termasuklah diri sendiri ini #nazmyzaki juga telah mengalami dan didiagnosed sebagai pesakit MDD - Major Depression Disorder. Perlu makan anti-depressant pill dan perlu bantuan sleeping pill. Worst case, apa yang aku alami dan hadapi tersebut.. berturut dengan non-stop overthinking, sehingga aku terpaksa pula ambil ubat high blood pressure.  Alhamdulillah dan nauzubillah.. sekarang aku sudah tak bergantung kepada ubat-ubat ini dan semoga aku terus menjadi diri yang fitrah.

Apa yang aku ingin tuliskan di MyWoW bukanlah untuk membuka pekung di dada atau cuba menjadi salah seorang pseudo-psychiatrist. Aku sekadar ingin berkongsi apa, mengapa dan bagaimana.. Panjang dan banyak yang ingin aku kongsikan, namun aku akan cuba make it short.

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Pen-off. Jam dah hampir 3.30 petang, aku perlu sambung prepare bahan kelas malam ini.

To be continued.

Depresi. Kemurungan. Kecelaruan emosi. Fighting the unseen.

Apa yang perlu anda tahu? 

"Berbangga Menjadi Anakmu"

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Allahumma firlahu warhamhu wa'afihi wa'fu'anhu..

Setahun sudah berlalu.. Damailah abah di sana.. Al Fatihah buat arwah abah..

Mohd Yusof bin Muda 

(16/01/1963 - 19/08/2017)

Antara hadiah terakhir yang pernah membahagiakan abah..
In shaa Allah 2019, Along akan berjubah baru bertopi bulat..

Sebesarmana cinta ku rasa..

Tapi Ilahi lebih menyayangi..

Namun ku redha kerana berbangga..

Dikurnia menjadi anakmu..

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Oh Tuhan berikan aku kekuatan..
Mendengar rintih hatiku berdoa..
Sejak Kau memanggil ayahku tuk pulang kembali..
Berkecai hati ku menerima takdir..

Aku rindukan setiap senyuman..
Setiap saat belaian kasihnya..
Tuhan janjikan kami ditemukan..
Setiap tidur malamku takkan lena..
Terkenang detik indah manja bersama..
Namun aku redha malang tidak pernah berkata..
Yang dah tertulis pasti ada hikmahnya..

Aku rindukan setiap senyuman..
Setiap saat belaian kasihnya..
Tuhan janjikan kami ditemukan..
Paling tidaknya jumpa di pinggiran syurga...

Aku rindukan setiap senyuman..
Setiap saat belaian kasihnya..
Tuhan janjikan kami ditemukan..
Paling tidaknya jumpa di pinggiran syurga..

Jumpa di pinggiran syurga..
Jumpa di pinggiran syurga..

Song by: Wan Imar & KRU Studios Sdn Bhd

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idlcX2vkm84

Recapitulation of My One Year Life

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Finally..

It is already 3rd September, yet, this is the very first entry for the year 2016.. 

One of not so achievable target.. *sigh* 

Life is never so dull for the past previous twelve months.. tonnes of things happened that should be shared and carved in MyWOW.. My World of Wisdom.. I don't wanna miss a single thing.. yet.. it is always overtaken by my not-so-willing-to-write attitude.. What happened my dear self..? #mohonjadirajin boleh..!?

A Quick Recap of My Life..

Sept 07, 2015.. officially registered as a PhD student at Universiti Malaysia Pahang under supervision of the most generous, the most compassionate husband and wife.. Professor Dato' Dr Hasnah Haron and Professor Dato' Dr Ishak Ismail.. whom I have known since furthering my master study at USM three years ago.. So bless to know them and to learn directly from them..

Sept 15, 2015.. around 4:30 pm.. received text through whatsapp from my uncle.. saying that my closest auntie passed away.. Al fatihah for her.. may Allah forgive her and gather her around those good and selected people.. I did face this sad news of the death of my closest ones who were both my grandmothers and cousin in 1999, 2003 and 2006 respectively.. Yet.. I had never been so 'close' to them.. I kept my distance, I recited Qur'an faraway and did not look upon them even when the white kafan was to cover them all up.. despite being called by my mother and relatives.. but for this time.. I was beside arwah Che Yah.. reciting the Qur'an phrases by phrases.. very near and close.. still until the end, I refused to look at Che Yah's face even though people came and opened the cover in front of me.. I am not strong enough.. that's why Ya Allah.. please.. give me enough time with my parents..

Oct 03, 2015.. a memory carved in MyWOW.. thank you Allah.. now.. counting the days for another month.. please Allah.. grant me the chance to be a better me.. hopefully this year is the last year owning the title of 'single and available'.. if I am to live for the following Oct 2017, may You grant me the partner of my life.. (wishing someone to come, greet my parents and promise them that he will take responsibility of me very soon).. Amin ya Allah...

Oct 30, 2015.. I knew it might be the case but trying hard to believe in other way round.. until this day when Abah told us that he is suffering the stage four cancer.. can't say anything more.. but Allah.. please.. please grant him health.. please grant both my parents longer life.. please grant us enough time to be together without regret, without repentant, without feeling remorseful..

Nov 18, 2015.. one of the best milestones ever.. Alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah.. thank you Ma.. thank you Abah.. thank you my families.. thank you my great teachers and lecturers.. thank you all who had made one of my dreams came true.. my convocation day and waiting for the next convocation.. in shaa Allah.. as per doa abah and the wishes in whatsapp group.. same date: "abah bangga dengan anak2 abah.. along sedang buat phd.. angah unimas kepujian.. abg scond class upper uum.. kakak upm klas pertama insyaallah.. mad captain.. ifah n adik pasti oversea.. abah n maa sangat bangga.. teruskan perjuangan.." it's a big responsibility for me.. Doakan along abah.. in shaa Allah.. along akan jaga adik2 seperti yang abah harapkan..

~hadiah untuk ma dan abah..~

Dec 12, 2015.. Guess what else is the most important date other than this is? Happy anniversary Ma, Abah.. 29 years counting.. huhu I could only send a simple wishes on this date last year.. Hopefully, this year 12/12/2016 we can celebrate more.. the 30 years of being together with each other.. having Along and the other six siblings as part of the miraculous moments in both of your life.. Thank You Ma.. Thank You Abah.. Thank you Allah for giving me this family..

Dec 18, 2015.. it is officially announced that I will be leading the UMP Postgraduate Association which never in my life I would dream for it.. yes, I used to be in a student society's, association and student's movement.. I love to organize events and occasions but I really do not prefer to be the main leader.. And during the Gala Night Dinner on this date, I was invited to be on the stage in front of more than 200 staff and postgraduate students as the new appointed president.. Is it hard? Yes, it is.. It is difficult? Yes, it has never been easy.. Yet since then, I get to know lot of people.. I learn lot of things..

Dec 24, 2015.. Again.. received another sad news through whatsapp.. My childhood friend, my dearest friend whom I shared more than half of my life with.. she had loss her father previous day.. My dear friend, we did not meet until now since that news came from you.. we have known each other since 1996 and I treasure you at the most special place deep in my heart.. truly, I am really sorry and I wish I was there.. I love you and will always love you Sahabatku..

Jan 1, 2016.. New year came.. New targets was made on this very first day.. yet, not even one achieved (*sigh*).. Dear Nazmy Zaki.. you have less than four months to clear up at least some of the aims listed in your 2016..

Jan 16, 2016.. it was Abah's 53 years birthday... huhu Along can't give anything except for the prayers.. May Allah keep borrowing this great man in my life and my families.. May Allah grant the cure for all the sickness and illness..

Feb 27, 2016.. Even we are geographically far apart, family will always connected deep in heart.. Thank you ma, thank you abah.. thank you my dear brother for driving them to UMP after long time I could not be at home.. huhu..

Mac 1, 2016.. Received a screen captured photo by my sister.. our dearest uncle put up the comment of his birthday.. so sad, so touched.. Maafkan kami Pok Mat.. huhu... will be more concerned and sensitive in future..

May 11, 2016.. it's our beloved Ma's birthday.. Happy birthday Ma.. I wished I could be home.. luckily.. on May 14, 2016.. Ma, abah, angah and iffah came to UMP.. Happy to treat them to Seoul Garden Mega Mall, Kuantan.. Alhamdulillah.. ma and abah enjoyed a lot.. happy happy happy.. thanks so much Allah.. I wish I can do even more for them..

Jun 4, 2016.. Organizing PGA Interaction Day.. huhu I knew myself is not a good leader.. a lot to improve on.. Even though, it is quite bold of me to say this.. but... I'm glad.. it was successfully executed within very short period of time.. Thank you so much for the great team work and supports by fellow PGA colleagues..

Jun 16, 2016.. passed one of the PhD milestones i.e. proposal defense.. it was tense, it was highly nervous for me since I did not fully prepare.. Alhamdulillah.. it went alright.. huhu but until now I still did not manage to do the correction.. hoho.. will do it soon..

July 6, 2016.. Alhamdulillah.. celebrating Eidul Fitri.. they said it red, we said it maroon.. hehe.. whatever it was, we were happy and enjoyed so much.. Wishing for another year and years coming, may we always be together.. maybe with a new family member.. huhuhu counting days to days.. still waiting for the mysterious figure.. Rabbi yassir wa la tu'asir.. rabbi tamim bilkhair.. amin ya Allah..

~More than Enough~

Aug 16, 2016.. huhu had only short holiday for Hari Raya.. after arriving at UMP for few weeks.. received the news that one of our dearest teachers fall sickness and was admitted at General Hospital, Terengganu.. huhu planned to visit him since Hari Raya.. Allah loves him more.. May Cikgu Salmi Senik rest in peace.. may Allah forgive all his sins.. may Allah grant him the happiness in life hereafter.. He taught me since I was in primary school, SK Tok Jiring.. He taught all of my six siblings.. May Allah pay all his good deeds and his devotion in shaping us into the useful and valuable human resource.. Alfatihah.. Thank you so much Cikgu.. Tenanglah di sana..

Aug 20, 2016.. Congrats my dear sister for your award of "Leftenan Muda".. so proud of you.. since you were little, you had always dreaming of becoming an officer in uniform.. You might has forgotten this, but.. once I did tell you the story about the Palapes.. where you can pursue your passion for both studies and uniformed unit.. Congrats again.. You did the best far above us.. Every semester scored Dean's List and now another one step forward.. Aye aye captain.. You deserve it..

Yet.. on the very same date.. through the photos posted by Ma in our whatsapp group.. I was crying.. I feel so sad to see our father's condition in one of the photos.. He looked so pale.. He looked so sick.. Ya Allah.. please.. please.. grant him good health.. or at least reduce down the suffers he faced..

"Please Allah.. Grant them good health.."

Aug 26, 2016.. very recently.. my dear sister Iffah was warded and had a three hours operation for appendicitis.. alhamdulillah.. she's good now.. huhu I'm sorry my dear sister for not going back home.. can only keep wishing for you.. See you this Eidul Adha.. on 31 Aug.. had a long talk over the phone with her.. Again.. feeling very bad and sad.. huhu.. she said.. Abah told her that he always pray to Allah to keep away the sickness and illness from us and put them on him.. (Y_Y) huhuhu.. "Allahumma firlana zunubana waliwalidina warhamhuma kama rabbayana soghira.."

Sept 3, 2016.. it's today.. and it's my first entry of the year.. recapitulating every thing, yet, not all can be written here.. huhu.. if there is the best answer to this questions: What is the best and greatest thing I wish for? I would say.. Please Allah.. grant me the calm heart and mind.. that's the only one I need..

Dear everyone.. thank you so much for being part of my life.. you had made a title, a chapter, a paragraph, and a note in my story of life.. My World of Wisdom.. Early birthday wishes to myself: "Be a girl with a mind, a woman with attitude and a lady with class.." Thank you so much Prof for the golden advice today.. I'll be a stronger person in shaa Allah.. 

For my dearest friends and families whom I have been treated unfairly, unjustly, cruelly, falsely, harshly.. I am really sorry.. I know I was even worse before and I'm trying hard to bring out only the best and positive in me.. honestly.. I never have bad intention and I wish all of us can reside next to each other in the life hereafter.. together in the heavenly park with The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him), his dearest families and 'alim ulama.. Please pray for me so that I can be strong, patience and have a big heart.. 

Abah dan Kenyataan Semalam

Bismillah.. 

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

just came back from UUM, Sintok, Kedah yesterday's night.. Congrats big bro for his graduation ceremony.. Alhamdulillah.. next will be my sister and I convocations.. May Allah bless us and our family.. 

On the way back yesterday, we stopped at one R&R to have some refreshments.. We had a little chit chat our our family life and issues.. 

Me: Abah cuti dua hari je kan.. Xpe ke amik cuti lama-lama?

Abah: Abah spesel case.. xpe.. 

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Abah: Tahun depan abah amik cuti mengajar setahun mulai bulan Januari..

Ma: Boleh ke? Tak pe pulak buat macam tu? 

Abah: Memang kerajaan bagi cuti.. 

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Abah: Ni.. abah nak kabo, 

kalau ikut Dr diagnos.. cancer abah stage 4.. stage critical.. 

utk penjawat awam, boleh dapat cuti dua tahun.. 

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I was like.. Astaghfirullahal azim.. selama abah sakit abah tak pernah bagitahu cancer abah stage ke berapa walaupun dah tanya banyak kali.. Kenyataan ni sangat2 menakutkan dan mengerikan.. Ya Allah.. kurniakanlah kesembuhan buat abah.. Janganlah Kau ambil semula pinjaman-Mu ini tanpa aku sempat menyediakan kesenangan dan kebahagiaan untuknya walaupun sekejap.. Allahu yasfi.. Syafakallah.. Kurniakanlah kesembuhan Mu ya Allah..

Abah pun ada cakap semalam.. Menurut Dr, selalu stage four Dr akan advice tempoh masa selama dua tahun.. Apa-apa pun.. semua kuasa Allah.. Janganlah Ya Allah.. Engkau lebih mengetahui hakikat hidup dan mati.. Pinjamkanlah kami abah dan ma kami walau sekejap jua, aku masih belum mampu membalas jasa walau setitik peluh mereka.. Amin ya Rabbal Alamin..

Ayah ~ Ae Man by Manis Helma dan Atie

Ketika berjauhan masih kurasa hangat kasihmu ayah

Betapa kurindukan redup wajahmu hadir menemaniku

Terbayang ketenangan yang selalu kau pamerkan 

Bagaikan tiada keresahan

Walau hatimu sering terluka 

Tika diriku terlanjur kata

Tak pernah sekali kau tinggalkan diriku sendirian

Ketika ku dalam kedukaan 

Kau mendakap penuh pengertian

Disaat diriku kehampaan

Kau setia mengajarku erti kekuatan

Terpancar kebanggaan dalam senyummu melihatku berjaya

Bilaku kegagalan tidak kau biarkan aku terus kecewa

Dengan kata azimat engkau nyalakan semangant

Restu dan doa kau iringkan 

Tak dapat kubayangkan hidupku ayah 

tanpa engkau disisi..

semua kasih sayang yang engkau curahkan 

tersemat dihati..

MBA (International Business) Part IV and FINAL

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakhbar..

Counting days.. 

One month coming will be the third graduation ceremony I will attend.. 

One of the moments that I will cherish in My World of Wisdom.. 

Thank You Allah for the great chance.. 

Thank You to my dearest and loveliest Ma and Abah.. 

Thank You semua adik2 Along.. 

Thank You so much dear Teachers and Lecturers.. 

Thank You to all staff at Graduate School of Business USM.. 

Thank You to all best friends and colleagues..

Gratefully, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart..

Alhamdulillah.. It is the turning point.. I pass with flying colours.. 

Subhanallah.. Astaghfirullah.. 

May this moment of time will be one of the stepping stones 

on the road to be a successful muslimah wal mukminah..

Just a quick recap.. What have I studied in the fourth semester a.k.a final semester? Well, I took two subjects which are:

• Entrepreneurship in Global Business taught by Prof Madya Tn Hj Noor Nasir Kader Ali
• Global Supply Chain Management taught by Dr Suzari Abdul Rahim

On top of that, we are required to complete the Project Management subject and Dr Rajendran Muthuveloo has been my supervisor. I did feel sorry because the result I got is not entirely my efforts. (Y_Y).. seriously.. huhu.. hoping to do much more better in current studies level.. Besides these, I had two subjects transferred from previous exchange student programme during third semester.. Alhamdulillah.. altogether.. I gained the highest CGPA I ever had in my life.. Thank You Allah.. Thank You all..

I still remember years ago when I said I want to further MBA studies.. They said it is one of the most difficult studies programme. Well.. it inspires me so much that by hook or by crook, I must enroll in this programme. As a matter of fact, I did re-write it couple and couple of times in my bucket list.. Alhamdulillah.. Allah grant me the opportunity to be the Master of Business Administration degree holder. Plus.. I'm an MBA International Business graduates.. (^_^) Alhamdulillah.. cannot wait to wear the graduation robe and be on the stage.. 

Some people say that they cannot do something..

Some people say that they are not able to do what they want to do..

Some people say that they cannot change their life conditions..

Some people say that they are not of a useful creation..

Believe me.. 

All those are just nonsense reasons..

Based on groundless reasoning..

Heartless feelings.. Aimless life..

Allah the Almighty has promised us that

"Every hardship comes ease.."

"Every prayer will be answered.."

"Every effort will be rewarded.."

In Shaa Allah.. Put trust in Him.. 

Set our goal of life and our highest ambition..

Start working towards our aims..

F.A.S.T.A.Q.I.M 

It maybe takes longer time.. It may make us cried blood and sweats..

Just BELIEVE IN OUR SELF and OUR CREATOR.. 

He knows best..

"Allahu yassir wa la tu'assir, Rabbi tamim bilkhair.."

"A Year Passed, A Future Undetermined"

Alhamdulillah.. Subhannallah.. Allahuakbar.. 

It has been a year passed by after the Beautiful Worldly Life entry.. 

Thank You Allah for the great gift called life. 

Wishing to be a better me from time to time, from day to day, from month to month and from year to year.. 

Ya Allah.. 

Do give me the chances to be a better me, 

guide me to the right path, 

grant me your forgiveness and keep me alive with iman for every breath I gasp..

Happy Birthday to me..

In Shaa Allah.. starting a new year with a new title.. 

May Allah provides me with great strengths and determination to pursue my passion..

May Allah gives me some time to entertain both of my parent in this worldly life.

An anonymous once asked, "What is Life?"
They say "It's from B to D. From Birth to Death".
"But what's between B and D?"
"There's a C".
"So, what's C?"
"It's is no other than CHOICE".

Ya Allah.. 

Engkaulah yang mengilhamkan jiwa dengan jalan kefasikan atau kebenaran. 

Moga cahaya kebenaran sentiasa menyala dalam diri..

Moga segala pilihan yang dibuat adalah berwawasan ummah..

Andai kata ini jalanku yang terbaik bagiku, ilhamkanlah kefahaman dan kejayaan.. 

Permudahkanlah segala urusan dan perkenankanlah segala permintaan..

Amin..

Terima kasih Ma dan Abah.. 

Terima kasih Angah, Abang, Kakak, Dik Mat, Ifah and Adik..

Terima Kasih Semua..

In Shaa Allah setiap kesusahan disusuli kesenangan.. 

Janji Allah itu pasti.. 

Doakan yang terbaik untuk Along.. 

Three years counting for a new title to be.. 

"Dr Nazmy Zaki.." 

In shaa Allah..

"Rabbi Yassir Wa La Tu'assir, Rabbi Tamim Bilkhair"

Beautiful Worldly Life

....

How beautiful, is this worldly life

But not a soul shall remain

We've all come into this world

Only to leave it one day

I can see that everything around me

Rises then fades away

Life is just a passing moment

Nothing is meant to stay..

This worldly life has an end

And it’s then real life begins

A world where we will live forever

This beautiful worldly life has an end

It’s just a bridge that must be crossed

To a life that will go on forever

So many years, quickly slipping by 

Like the Sleepers of the cave (Al Kahfi)

Wake up and make a choice

Before we end up in our grave...(oh God)

You didn’t put me here in vain

I know I’ll be held accountable for what I do

This life is just a journey

And it’s taking me back to You

Oh...

  

So many get caught in this beautiful web

Its gardens become an infatuation

But surely they’ll understand at the final stop

That its gardens are meant for cultivation

Alhamdulillah.. Subhanallah.. Allahuakbar..

Today.. October 3, 2014.. "Selamat Ulangtahun buat diriku yang ke-26.." Thank you Allah for giving me this chance to still be a part of this wordly life.. Chance to be a better me.. chance to fulfill my obligation as Muslim.. Moga diriku menjadi muslimah yang beriman dan beramal soleh.. "Ya Allah.. Engkau telah ciptakan aku dengan nikmat Islam dan Iman, Kekalkan aku dalam Islam dan Iman serta Matikan aku jua dalam Islam dan Iman.." Amin ya rabbal 'alamin..

Today is a very special day.. In Muslim calendar, today is 9 Zulhijjah 1435H, the Wukuf Day for those who are currently in their pilgrimage of life.. dutifully and sincerely performing their Hajj and Umrah as a servant of Allah at Makkah Al-Mukaramah.. Today is also a Friday.. Jumaat, penghulu segala hari.. Hari rahmat dan berkat.. Ya Allah.. perkenankan doa hamba-Mu yang hina dan fakir ini..

"Ya Allah.. 

Engkau hadiahkanlah kesihatan yang baik bagi kedua orang tuaku.. 

Sembuhkanlah penyakit mereka.. Hilangkanlah dukacita mereka.."

"Ya Allah..

Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu..

Percepatkanlah urusan jodohku andai hal itu baik bagiku dan agamaku.."

"Ya Allah..

Kurniakanlah kejayaan di dunia dan akhirat 

buat semua kaum keluargaku, sanak saudaraku, sahabat kenalanku

serta seluruh muslimin dan muslimat.."

"Ya Allah..

Janganlah Engkau matikan kami dalam keadaan kami leka dan alfa..

Ampunilah dosa-dosa kami..

Bimbinglah kami ke jalan yang lurus lagi diredhai.."

~This beautiful worldly life has an end.. hopefully, a year older a year wiser..~

A true story #sejarahberulang#

Masih ingat lagi waktu itu..

Kecoh..

Sedih.. Benci.. Menyampah..

Semua ada.. Bercampur-baur..

Padahal umurku baru setahun jagung..

Ya.. waktu itu diriku hanyalah murid darjah empat..

Di sebuah sekolah kebangsaan..

Tahun 1998..

Enam belas tahun telah ditinggalkan..

Waktu itu..

Diriku baru bertatih mengenal apakah itu sains..?

Baru merangkak mencipta kenangan demi kenangan..

Namun.. ada sesuatu..

Yang paling tidak dapat dilupakan..

Sesuatu yang pahit dan amat memualkan..

Membentuk transformasi minda..

Oleh satu perkataan.. "Politik"

#Seriously..this is a true story..#

Sejak itu tertanam satu persepsi..

Yang mana sehingga kini masih menghantui..

Dan semalam..

Sejarah yang sama telah berulang..

Benarlah..

Selagi mana manusia bercita-cita dunia menguasai..

Perkara yang sama dan hampir serupa..

Pasti akan berlaku dan terus berlaku lagi..

Mahkamah dunia sekadar menghukum..

Berhujahkan nafsu dan kecetekan akal..

Teruslah menzalimi kami dan diri kalian sendiri..

Moga terbit lagi warkah dari penjara..

Cetakan emas dan permata berharga..

Untuk tatapan anak-anak warisan..

Sesungguhnya dunia ini hanya sementara..

Janji Allah pastikan tiba jua..

Waktu itu..

Sejarah pasti berulang...

Zaman kegemilangan Islam..

Zaman khilafah memegang tampuk pemerintahan..

Zaman hukum Allah dijadikan paksi kebenaran..

Zaman Al Quran dan As Sunnah sebagai dasar kerajaan..

In Shaa Allah..

Andai saat itu tiba..

Engkau teruskan perjuangan itu wahai bakal anak-anakku..

Mungkin ibumu ni telah tiada..

Waktu itu..

Doakan moga kita berkumpul di satu daerah yang sama..

Di negeri Akhirat yang kekal abadi..

Di bawah panji kebesaran Islam..

Di belakang Imam kami.. Nabi Muhammad Saw..

Nastaghfirullahal'azim..

Diri kami banyak kekhilafan dan kesilapan..

Terlampau hina dan kekurangan..

Ampuni dosa-dosa kami ya Allah..

Tempatkan kami dan ibu bapa kami

Serta mereka yang beriman di jalan-Mu..

Bersama-sama golongan yang diredhai dan dicintai oleh-Mu dan kekasih-Mu..

Amin ya Rabbal Alamin..

Nazmy Zaki 08032014

Am I saying something wrong? 

*sigh* 

Just sharing my thought of my beloved country.. It's sickening..

PRAY FOR MH370

Tidak Allah jadikan sesuatu itu sia-sia..

Everthing happens for a reason

Bonds of Love

Subhanallah.. Alhamdulillah.. Allahuakbar..

Thank you Allah for always giving me the chance and opportunity..
For Your forgiveness upon sins I made..
For always leading me to the right pathway whenever I'm swaying out..
For always keeping me among those who faithfully worship You..

This evening, after such a long silence.. i'm back on the track.. thank so much Arina.. Even last night, I have been one of the chosen members..

Thank You Allah for awarding her..